15 December 2013

Of relationship and cynicism

I've decided that after clearing my mind off her (the girl i like from previous posts), I can finally move on...and now instead of having 2 troublesome thoughts to think about (her and depression),i'm left with depressives thoughts to ponder about. With that said, I forgot to take my anti-depressants yesterday and it gave me such a huge headache and i didn't want to take panadol because it might interfere with the anti-depressant i took when i remembered i forgot to take it last night. Hurts so bad i wasted today not finishing up my report because it's just too annoying.

I'm always sceptical about having online relationships,but there's this girl i met,shamefully (or not) through neopets. I thought,hey i actually met someone off that site and so it might be the same this time, and turns out i actually had a decent conversation with someone totally strange. She's from the US,New York and age 19. time is minus 5 hours from mine..(CSI:NY, y u no show anymore). So we chatted and suddenly i thought she was flirting for fun since it's absolutely nothing serious so i decided to tease her back and things got out of hand...it's insanely awkward to even write here about what we talked about...but in a nutshell, she had a boyfriend in Canada, so i backed off, then she kept coming and pestering me, you wouldn't believe what she kept asking me about, for my photos, shirtless photos and you-know-what follows...then yesterday she decided to hate her bf for i-don't-know-what-reason and says she wants to be my girlfriend and talk dirty and crap to get my testosterone going. The first thought in my mind is, it must be some kind of joke, or a spambot of some kind, so i decide to wait for the joke to appear. I have no idea,she seems like a nice person, but maybe she's just really open minded, or a joke of some kind of even a spambot. /Cynical mind at work here. So she sent me a picture, and yeah i admit she's pretty, but the source of the photo indicates it was from a SAMSUNG phone, dated at september 2013, and i can't find anymore digital information to CSI this shit out. Ughh,i hope this is the last night i'm going to sleep this late (2am) Tomorrow,i definitely need to put my report as top priority.

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