#45

Saw my ent doc a week ago, good thing he didn't do a lot of cleaning, otherwise I'll have experienced a world of discomfort and dizziness. Now that I've started using some of the spare eardrops that I still have, the ear infection seems to be going away, leaving only dry skin just around my ear entrace. I don't know if it's just dried wax or dried skin,but we'll see.

Also, writing up notes from a really good book that I found, The Five Invitations by Frank Ostaseski. A lot of Buddhist wisdom, but that's okay. Planning on sharing the notes with my PSG peers too. Don't know if I wanna write it down, it's a lot, or just refer to my blog post to let them know. Also, before this book, I've read one on emotional intelligence in the workplace,and that's a new topic I decided to take the risk of exploring, because I kinda been borrowing a lot of books of similar topics, so I thought I might try reading something else.

At this point in life, I'll say I'm approximately 70% ready to start working on my long term goals, which is to find work overseas, because as I remind myself, it's so that I can get more exposure as well as independent living and seizing the chance while my parents are still able bodied. Of course, gonna start with writing up cvs and waiting for interviews and so on, I'll also probably won't expect to land a job like within months, it might even take a year,so I know I want to get started as soon as I am close to being ready. Sometimes I get confused. Am i overpreparing myself? Then I thought, probably not, with mindfulness, I still have some aspects of my personal life that could use some touching up, and with the peer support group, I kinda get some experience of working (by supporting and offering advice) with new people. Just the session yesterday, there was 2 new non-regular people, but we manage to form a telegram group to share resources. We might even plan an outing so that's quite a bit of progress. I hope this can help me with work in some way too. 

#44

So I went to see the gp,and got medication (cream) to apply on my rashes and a bit of ringworm on my back. Few days later, it's mostly gone,but I gotta keep applying the cream for ringworm as doc says fungus can be quite persistent.

Also, as every day visit to gp, I need to take my blood pressure and weight. I'm still overweight, but my blood pressure's quite high. I don't know if it's just that day's reading or not, or if it's something I should be worried about. Think i might want to go for a blood test someday.

New problem, my ears have been blocked on and off for weeks now,and my ent doc's appointment is next week. It's quite frustrating to have blocked ears, I seriously wonder what is causing the ear infection.

I also went for my peer support group session yesterday, and I think so far I like it, although it can be awkward quite often, but yeah. Also, my soles for my sandals dropped on the way there, need to remind myself to get a new pair of sandals.

So far since the start of this year, I think I've been putting in a bit more effort to change things. I've managed to finish my books a little faster, do new exercises at home and at the gym, try to cut down just a little on snacking in the afternoon and just ensure that I continue to make progress no matter how small.